Its xmas eve, it doesn’t even feel like xmas is tomorrow. It feels like any other wednesday and im just waiting for it to be the weekend so mums home & it isn’t so boring around here. Our christmas tree isn’t empty anymore, but all the bigger presents are for family and such, the smaller ones are for me and my sisters. Idk, I sorta expect there to be more under there but I don’t want to get my hopes up. Xmas eve isn’t very happy for my family, like its supposed to be. I don’t know how many years but its the anniversary of my (biological) grandpa’s death today. Mums Dad died Christmas eve when she was 14. How sad, itd be awful just losing a parent but on christmas eve would be worse, every year when people are celebrating you have the thought of your dead parent in your head. Every year being reminded the day before xmas that your dad died, im sure that feeling would still be there every christmas day.
